[meme, toy] New Year LJ Toys

Yoinked from siderea:

In 2007, jrising resolves to…

Overcome my secret fear of lucid dreams.
Backup my hypnotism regularly.
Take metagenie unschooling.
Volunteer to spend time with politics.
Apply for a new parecon.
Ask my boss for a chocolate.
Get your own New Year’s Resolutions:

I’m still trying to figure out how it knew about my secret fear.

And here’s an LJ toy of my own. Below is the graph of the total livejournal activity of my friends over the past year. On the left, each point represents someone’s [public] post, with the height being the number of comments. The right shows a bar for every day: blue is posts, red is comments.

I’m really curious about the bar graph: the post counts vary by day of week but are fairly constant over time, but the comment counts seem to come in long waves (must do longer-timespan analysis!). I built the toy to possibly do some nifty word frequency analysis or subject vs. comment count comparisons– but I’ll do that later. If you want a graph of your own, or have other fun ideas of extensions for this analyzer, just comment below.

[life, muse] Change, Change, Change

It’s the time of year when schools relax their panopticon, the consumerist machine casts its nets, and good little philosophers snuggle into their books and reflect. My year has been full– filled with challenges, good times with good friends, and opportunities for new work, play, and growth– and defies recap. Instead, here are the changes I feel like I’m going through now, though I don’t know how far they’ll go. I’d love it if others took this as a meme (though your list will probably look very different from mine).

I’ve developed a distaste for my habits of philosophical reflection and conscious growth (like this? *sigh*). I tend to approach the world like an ever-blooming flower: I’ll unfurl each petal, stretch it to catch the light, and let it fall to make room for another. But now my obsession with that progress has become a barrier– my destiny is in the world, not in my head. I love reflection, but now less so when it’s self-absorbed or disconnected from the world, or pot-riddled– it’s all fun, but that’s all it is. I love growth, but I believe it can be intentional and ongoing without being planned or considered.

I have a greater appreciation for the overlookable details. A friend of mine learned ski-instruction in India, where the slopes go for miles. He said you could just tilt your head, or shift your attention, and the skis would follow. The greatest thing I learned from traveling is the huge effects on how people interacted with me based on the slightest variations of mood and presentation. We get to choose the rules to this game called life, and the instruction manual is written in life’s unnecessary complexities, details, and accessories, which I’m growing to love. I spent ten years developing an externally simple life; now I’m giving that up for some playful ambiguities.

I’ve refooted my sexual interests and sexual self. It took me a long time to get comfortable sleeping alone again, and I was driven by what I didn’t have. But I’m think I’m now more comfortable personally, sexually, and socially than any time since awakening my sexual interest (four years ago). I’m happy with the relationships I have with my male and female friends, and happy living up being single. While deep relationships are incredible and all, I think for now I’ll dedicate myself to seducing women for the thrills of that game.

This year I also got into experimental jazz, salsa dancing, exercise, and sexual display, but those aren’t worth philosophizing about.

[life] Updates

  • Many friends have left to visit their no-longer-homes; at the moment, my plan is to vacation in Cambridge except for Christmas Eve. I’m staying at the Opium Den to care for Chloe-the-cat starting Sunday. If anyone is around and wants some adventure, get in touch.
  • I now have two trashed houses to clean: left-overs from a triple-whammy of the Rocky Party, a Salon, and Claudia staying over. Somehow Claudia can generate more mess than 30 drunk Rockys– and making me feel more used than a hawk president who can’t take a hint. Sometimes.
  • I finally saw Reefer Madness the Musical on DVD! The choreography is beautiful!, and the pot-riddled situations and characters so true. I can’t wait to see the MIT production– starting January 26.
  • I did my first real winter-gift shopping today (not counting a window-shopping trip a few days ago to re-awaken my consumerism). One more day ought to do it.
  • My impulse self-purchase was How to Succeed with Women which looks better than it sounds. I’m quite happy with my female relations now, but it’ll be good for the long-term. I’m trying to decide if I want to create a distinct real-life persona to try out a bunch of social experiments.

[survey] Choosing a Seminar to Teach

I want to teach a seminar in ESG next semester, but all of my ideas require a fair amount of preparation, and I like them all too much to decide between them. So I want to hear your reactions: below are descriptions of the classes I’m trying to decide between. What sounds interesting to you, and are there any variations or related topics that you’d want in the classes?

FYI, non-MIT people are always welcome at my seminars and activities. I may also do parts of these as activities during January, when MIT becomes a seething mass of zany seminars, projects, and gatherings.

The Coming Years: An Exploration of the Future

[fbc] Wew, Party

Basic statistics:
Size: about 3/4 full; the curtains helped make nice places for people to cluster
Casualties: at least 3, one of which I feel really guilty about
End: Last crash at almost 8:00; 7 crashed here
Feel: upright socializing: one good conversations after another, spontaneous party antics

I got into so many good conversations. I got to hypnotize someone. Most people loved the brownies, and many people liked the Monopoly game and appreciated it at least as a piece of art. And I got one truth too horrible to tell.

I’m beginning to really like the current “upright, spontaneity-filled hanging out” party trend– it’s very dynamic and mature. When this kind is like last night’s, few game parties can compare.

Some rumor had it that I was hosting next weekend too, but I hadn’t been planning that.

[salon] Salon Discussion, December 5

Salon Discussion, December 5

Disclaimer: I hold a regular Salon discussion group, with wide-ranging conversations on politics, philosophy, society, and life. The thoughts in this post came from a recent Salon, but are not an accurate reflection of the dialogue.

My first two discussion topics for the Salon fell flatter than a philosopher down a well. But we end up with more interesting discussion on changes to MIT’s rush and on government morality.

When can an institution be said to have morality or a responsibility to some group? The question of MIT rush hinges on to whom MIT is responsible: either to worried parents, or to MIT’s alternative community. How one answers this question also has implications for the role of morality and responsibility for individuals under MIT and other institutions.

For those who haven’t heard the debate a million times, we reiterated it at the salon. Until recently, MIT had a long rush period before the start of classes, in which all incoming freshman took part. Students coming to MIT had temporary housing until the end of rush, when they rank-ordered their dorm choices (or pledged an off-campus living group). Dorms could not reject students, but they informed their self-selection with a dense calendar of activities. Recent changes have eliminated off-campus pledging, secured the selections incoming students make before arriving, and halved the length of rush.

MIT student culture laments these changes and has fought the administration for years. They claim that the immediate and important lifestyle decision incoming freshmen were expected to make benefits the students, and this self-selection process helped foster the intense communities that form the MIT experience for many people. Now, we worry, students will make uninformed decisions and not bother to ever look for the communities that will make them happy, thereby weakening both the groups they find themselves in and those they never found.

MIT appears to be motivated by parents who don’t understand the process and complain, by a view of the student as not capable of handling this responsibility, and by an interest in unifying the MIT community to increase alumni donations.

So the student’s argument is that MIT as an institution has a responsibility to the interests of its most attached constituents. MIT should serve its students, not their parents. Specifically, it should serve the students who took advantage of this feature of student communities, not those who felt inconvenienced by its bugs. And, it’s said, MIT alums’ low contributions are a direct reflection of their disapproval of these and similar changes that have plagued the MIT community for dozens of years.

But institutions like MIT are constructs; if they are said to have responsibilities, those responsibilities can be defined in any way. I don’t know what MIT’s constitution says, but I suspect it wasn’t written to protect the rights of the communities that spontaneously arose under it. This is the contract view of morality: MIT’s sole responsibility is to fulfill the terms of it’s constitutive contract, to which students gave implicit consent by enrolling; if we don’t like it, we can leave.

The old debate between Rawls/Hobbes and Nozick/Locke returns. But this view on the dichotomy offers some outs.

We discussed whether the value of a policy be determined objectively. For example, a government does what a majority of its population selects. It seems relatively straight-forward to ask, once the policy is in place, how well-satisfied the population is with the change. Each person’s judgment is based on individual values, but, it’s claimed, we don’t have to ask what those values are to judge the policy.

Except that policies come out of Lakoffian paradigms of values, and their effects go beyond the satisfaction of their stated criteria. Policies are values embodied. Among their unspoken effects are the propagation of a particular view of the world. This also means that policy-making is not a rolling of so many uniquely weighted dice; it is a working out between powerful frameworks of values, and people’s allegiances to the battling frameworks matter more than their interests in the policy outcomes.

So consider the role of individuals under the two value frameworks: the contract-motivated and the people-motivated models. Individuals under the contract view are not expected to take responsibility the way they are under the people view. In a world of contracts, a person’s sole responsibility is a negative one: to not break their contracts. And correspondingly, MIT has grown more suspicious of student responsibility in recent years. Under the people view, however, the effects of policies are conceived in terms of students’ potential for growth, rather than their potential for breaking contract.

Which is all to say that the conception of the individual itself is different (as a moral grower or a contract term), and if the people who run MIT had any respect for the people who are living under it, they would define us better by defining themselves better.

[fbc] Rocky Monopoly, alpha version

I’ve been working on a new game for parties: a Rocky Horror version of Monopoly.

I consider this something of a gift to the community for all the good times I’ve had so far. We may only play it once, but I hope you’ll all enjoy it, for it’s novelty if not more.

If you have time, take a look at the game so far, and give me your ideas. I particularly need more fun sexual favors (used as money), and more chance and theatre basement cards. You can get a sense of what I’m looking for from the ones I have up.

I’m open to ideas on all levels. It’s well known that my sense of what’s appropriate at parties is a bit skewed, but I’ve tried to make it accessible to everyone. I’ve put a fair amount of thought into the game (I like to be thorough when I’m being silly), but I’m always ready to embrace an new idea I hadn’t thought of.

The full version (beta, anyway) will be ready to play this Saturday at my party, if the party is in the mood for a game.

[life] The Unbearable Brightness of Living

Today is nothing special, and yet it hit me anew that the life I’m living is the one I always dreamed of. Not in every way: I’m not fully who, doing what, or where I want to be, but I’m going in the directions I want, and love every minute of the process, and can’t imagine life without it.

I make just enough money doing things I enjoy on my terms with more than enough time to spare. I make my own schedule– I sleep in when I want to, and I get up early most days because I want to. I spend countless hours with good friends, who are creating their own paradises and struggling out of their own hells. I’m part of more wonderful communities than I would have thought possible– every one of them a home and a family. And I live in the Athens of the East Coast: the center of the developing world, as far as I’m concerned.

I have interesting problems to work on, personally, politically, and for the shear joy of the hunt. I can spend time with intricate exercises in silliness, and then switch to experimenting with the human social creature, and then join in a collective search for the unspoken questions of the day.

Yesterday I bought tickets to far-and-away, for the end of January, fully expecting that I’d be going there alone. Two hours later and unexpected meetings with friends later, I might still be going alone, or I might spend a week road-tripping across far-and-away with three good friends. In any case, I can’t wait.

I’m in love with life, and pleased with what I’m becoming and what I’m giving. If there was one thing I could wish, it would be more ways to spread my joy around. I dance even when there’s no music playing. I could die happy, right now.

If I seem down some day, remind me of this.

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